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The Raven & The Lotus

"I was the lonely moon in that pitch black sky, but you are the stars who painted that isolated dark canvas. You never leaving my side to fend for myself in the darkness." - C.T.

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❁ Mai's Lore ❁

Mai Bảo-Châu [Means "A Precious Blooming Pearl"]

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── .✦When I wrote her, I included a lot of women references to her. She is a symbolism for a lot of women's suffrage when it comes to losing their bodily autonomy and suffering in silence. Hence her not trusting doctors at first because they made her injuries worse. With her not getting along with Fang at first because of his strange practices and she is already weary of doctors in general. I made her so pro-woman when I wrote her since even I and many had experiences when doctors don't listen to you when you actually tell them something is wrong or get gaslighted.── .✦Another is generational trauma. Which many would relate when it comes to families repeating the cycle or it just carries through. I call it as her family's 'curse'. Which technically is. I took a lot of inspo from both Viet/Chinese cultures and stories for this idea. But her curse triggers when she feels intense negative emotions or anger. In turn, she goes into a berserker state where she can't tell whose an enemy or ally. But, she keeps her anger in check or else she would become what others deem her as. An unstable woman. However, the draw back is that she doesn't express her emotions as much. She wants to be angry, but she can't. Hence why she leaves for Sandrock. So that she can live a quiet life and away from people.── .✦Which is something I feel Fang relates with her, how he keeps his own thoughts and feelings within. It's a huge slow-burn with them with a lot of mature themes since they both got dealt with a bad hand but I feel after they get through the misunderstandings, they become the bestest of friends and the closest of lovers.── .✦I had this idea back then and I'm recycling it back in. I want to include that Fang and Mai has a shared past. When the both met back in Seesai where he was homeless and trying to find food and shelter. He was sitting on the steps on her mother's Opera house. It was raining and she gave him cover with her umbrella. She was a lonely kid since her parents tries to be careful with her so she doesn't go and trigger her curse. So Fang was her first friend and so on. She would sneak food out to him from her mother's opera house. Giving him steam bao buns and just kept him company.── .✦Of course, good things don't last long and she left without saying something. This hurt Fang severely. "Everyone I love leaves me." Eventually, causing him to resent Mai a lot when he meets with her again in Sandrock.But in reality, so much happened where her and her family needed to escape Seesai.

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── .✦Since all Sino-Asian characters have their family name as their first, I did the same for Mai.
I created Mai based on my own experiences, my heritage, and around Fang to compliment his characteristic/appearance. For Mai, I wanted her to struggle with her family's "curse". AKA, a metaphor for generational trauma. And for her to break the cycle on her own. The idea I have planned for Mai is that she slowly is able to have a much looser grip from the curse due to her being apart of the Sandrock community. I don't want her healing to just be ALL from Fang but from the people in Sandrock that she interacted with and bond. I took inspiration from my own time and experience in the MTA community and the friends I made along the way, since it is very healing for me being there.── .✦Mai's appearance is more Asian goth due to her exploring and trying new styles to show off her individuality while still keeping her Seesai heritage close. She's able to find her own style thanks to Nia. Mai does care about her appearance a lot due to her mother's lectures and reinforcing on how appearance carries a person a lot through life and so on.

Mai's Family Curse, History, & Background˚∘⊰⋆☆

── .✦Mai's curse starts to become more apparent during her pre-teen years. Each cursed descendent triggers for the curse is different but the only similarity is anger. Mai never has the luxury of getting to feel angry or let her body feel any sort of release from it. She has to bottle her emotions up all her life to protect others. Hence why she always look so lifeless or is very nonchalant with her interactions with others. Mai has tried to live a normal life, dating.. Friendship. But most just ended very short due to most not understanding her or just giving up on her. Nia being the only person still sticking by her.── .✦Of course, Nia at the time wanted to "fix" Mai. Mai calls her out on this and sense hesitation in Nia, telling her to stop pursing her romantically just the fact Mai doesn't want to hurt the only person who is still by her side. Especially if the person had any hint of hesitation due to their knowledge of Mai's background and family's curse.── .✦Eventually with the help of Mai's close friends, Vivi in particular, she started to let herself to love and be loved by Fang. Mai began to have more life in her face along with expressions. Shocking many locals in Sandrock with her gentle smile but they are all happy to see more life in her.── .✦For her family's curse and it's history, Mai and her father are decedents of a clan that is almost completely wiped out during the calamity. The Sen Vàng clan (The Golden Lotus). Their people dealt with war and even being hunted into near extinction, their women and children being stolen and men slaughtered. I based this off of some Vietnamese folklores and tales, with Mai's ancestors using their own blood and decedents to carry out their vengeance for what happened to their people. And it will always be the first born who has to carry this burden. Those who knows that they have this in their blood ALWAYS drown their own first born at birth, or their child gets taken away by higher Seesai authority/government to be used as child soldiers. These children are wanted not for their curse to be studied but for their inhumane strength when they go into a bloodlust state. One of these berserkers can equal to a whole army if given the right tools and weapons. Those who possess this curse will occasionally hear the voice of their ancestors edging them on, to kill, to slaughter, to get revenge for their people.. To give into the anger and grief.
Mai's father, sadly, was a victim in this but was able to escape intact. Despite him being able to win his freedom, he still had to fight his family's curse from running rampage in his blood and overtaking him. Mai's father trying to fight against all this anger he felt during his time being under the authority of these callous government official. Not wanting to hurt any innocent while also not wanting to risk being recaptured, he escape south of Seesai. Where he met Mai's mother. A famous performer in the south of Seesai who is known for her elegant singing and dance. Her singing and songs calmed his bloodlust. Eventually both falling in love with one another and had Mai. Despite this invisible rule that Mai's father had hanging over him, he refused to drown his first born daughter. Instead, wants to give her a chance to prove everyone that they can fight this.── .✦Soon after, Mai's father side of the family found out and threatens to take Mai and him to the authority for they are scared of what both of them are capable of. This made Mai and her family escape to Highwind, leaving their home behind. Mai's parent wanted to prepare her if she ever was possessed by the bloodlust. Her mother taught her how to sing her songs and how to play Seesainese instruments since that is how her mother was able to calm her father. With her father, he taught her martial arts. Along with how to train the mind, the body, and the soul. Due to the fact that the curse is VERY brutal and taxing on a person. If the person's body, mind and soul are not prepared for when the curse takes over, it can literally destroy one's body beyond repair or they can die from how much the curse pushes a person's body past the limit.── .✦Hence why Mai always seem so emotionless, cold, and unresponsive. She is scared to trigger her ancestor's wrath and anger if she were to show any sort of emotions. Even if its happier ones, she still wants to be careful and tries not to be too close to anyone in fear of it leading to negative emotions. Her previous experience with her cousin made her more recluse and careful. Mai losing control during a heated argument with her cousin, with her cousin trying to subdue and calm her down. Just for their eye to be taken from Mai. (This cousin is going to be the governor of Evershine.) Mai still feels bad to this day for what she has done and for her tearing apart whatever family her and her parents had left.

── .✦Mai being reserve and quiet is her trying to protect others. Even with her trying to live a normal life, a few of her exes has tried to egged her on to see what this "curse" was about. One in particular finding it amusing, liking a more "fiery" and "spicy" side of Mai. This relationship alone destroyed her with not only her ex crossing her boundaries but also cheating on her to elicit more reactions out of her. Mai being single for 4 years after that.── .✦During her time in Highwind as an adult, she was a Civil Corp member thanks to her father's teachings and training. Making it easy for her to join. Despite what others may think of her.. She still wants to help others and have shown through her actions. Even if its through small acts of kindness as a Civil Corp member. This made her popular in Highwind as this silent but a gentle member whose beauty is a bonus to many. Her being bombarded with many heart knots after its been known that she is single and on the market, from secret admirers and from people she has saved. Of course, she rejects every single one. Even feeling a bit of a dislike for heart knots in general since it feels like a mind game to her. Mai quit the Civil Corp when she got into an accident that destroyed her arms. She protected a child that was surrounded by monsters, but in the mist of only focusing on protecting this kid, she ended up almost having both her arms amputated.
She saw many doctors and most made her healing worse and worse, to the point where it became irreparable. Her having to live with their mistakes with chronic pain and permanent scaring on her arms.
She can still use her arms but not to the full extent without feeling pain. Mai having to buy painkillers constantly to combat this pain for her work and to function. (When she is in her bloodlust mode, her arms are nearly destroyed from the pain and the muscles ripping.) Mai did became depressed for a period but her parents and Nia encouraged Mai that there are other paths. Mai's father helped her learn kick boxing and taekwondo. With Nia pushing her to join the Builder's academy!── .✦After some years in Highwind and her being a builder for less than a year there, she wanted a quiet life away from the city and people. Mostly to protect them but to have her own peace and mind to herself. Seeing a contract for Sandrock, she instantly took it in a heartbeat. Setting off to start a new life in a new city.

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Fang & Mai's Dynamic & Acquaintanceship˚∘⊰⋆☆

── .✦I wanted to explore their dynamic a little differently compare to what I've seen from others. Like I mentioned above, I wanted Mai to compliment Fang as well but to also have her own individuality. I took the motif of Yin-Yang with Fang and Mai to heart. Them being different from one another but yet so similar. Them complimenting each other and finding balance to make their relationship work. They are a HUGE slow burn, and when I mean slow burn.. I mean it takes around 2 years for them to finally get together. Especially with how awkward and reserve they are due to their upbringing with Seesai culture. (Which is perfect because I am a sucker for a good slow burn romance.)── .✦When Mai and Fang first met each other, they did not get along with one another. Mai assuming that Fang is another quack doctor and Fang being a bit unsettled by Mai's presence. Fang recognized her instantly from their shared past but she doesn't. Seeing how she acts and treated him, he assumed she changed from the sweet girl he remembered to a cold-hearted woman. He grew very resentful towards her and is a bit more frigid compare to others but he still wants to help her, since that is his moral code as a doctor and belief. Mai eventually tried his medicine and found it to be more effective than her previous prescriptions. Of course, her disdain and resentment for doctors in general still is present. Even if she doesn't talk much to Fang, he can feel it.── .✦With Mai occasionally coming to his clinic for restocks on medication, bandages and gauze. She does bond with X a bit, since she feels that animals are far less judgmental compare to humans. Even if X seems rude at first to her, she found him charming. Catching Fang's curiosity, only for a little bit when she does stop by. Mai had thought about it, how this silly raven and mute doctor seem familiar. But that can't be right. He isn't her Shimiao. (He most definitely is her Shimiao, just goes by Fang now.)── .✦Mai also learned from Arvio and the others that Fang is a lonely man who keeps to himself just like herself. Eventually after months of their rocky acquaintance stage. Mai and Fang became friends and rapidly became very close friends after the opening X gave them both. X seeing how much of a kindred soul these two are and that he wants these two childhood friends to reconcile again. Fang and Mai cleared any misunderstanding while she tells him that she had no choice but to escape Seesai on short notice but is happy to see him alive and well in Sandrock.

Fang & Mai's Friendship˚∘⊰⋆☆

── .✦During their friendship, Fang would hint/pester Mai to let him give her a check up. Since she never got a check up from him since they first met. Mai with her fears and doubt, would make excuses and dip out of the clinic whenever Fang brings it up. Which in turn, makes him worried for her even more and wants her to be healthy. But feels he doesn't know much of his favorite person, with all the years they never spent together, she's a whole new person with her own new interests and woes.── .✦Then one day, Fang was picking up herbs near a cliff while his mind wondered and drifted off to Mai. One misstep and he fell off the cliff on accident but is grabbed on instantly and pulled up by Mai. Only for her to give away that she felt pain surging through her arms. Fang noticing it and calling Mai out. Being even more persistent and assertive that he must give her a check up. When her chronic pain got too much, he instantly carried her back to his clinic with his lungs burning from physical exertion. Even if his body isn't used to this much labor, he wants to save and help her.── .✦Mai does give in when the arrived at his clinic and lets Fang perform his very first check up on her. When Fang saw Mai unwrapped her bandages, he sees her arms are full of dark scars all over. A bit shocked and taken aback, he reassures her that she is safe with him and that he won't do anything she doesn't like. Especially when Mai kept flinching at Fang's touch. During this moment, it's tender, vulnerable, warm and intimate with them both. Even if they both have realized their feelings for one another during this moment, they refuse to speak out the words; "I love you" due to their own darkness and fears. Mai telling Fang about her medical history and her past with her previous doctors. Which makes Fang visibly upset by this. But Mai tells him that it's all in the past and nothing can be done now. Fang keeping his thoughts to himself but does want to help her in anyways he can. Secretly researching a way to help her with her chronic pain.── .✦As their friendship deepened even more whenever they went out on friendly dates. Fang would purposely walk slow when Mai escorts him back home. Just wanting to spend more time with her as much as he can due to their profession keeping them both busy. Both Mai and Fang even finding excuses to see each other often. Even if they both are very secretive with how they feel about one another, they still want to be in each other's company.── .✦Mai occasionally would give Fang and X "left overs". It's not just another excuse for her to see Fang again but to show that she cares and wants to feed him. Fang cherish this gesture dearly. Since the meal she cooks for him are all traditional Seesainese food. (All vegan of course!)── .✦Fang would find himself making an excuse to see Mai as well. May it be picking herbs near her home or trying to make conversation with her when she visits his clinic. Hoping she would stay longer and chat with him. Even sending her medicines he made himself with a letter attached to X, to make sure she is well and healthy. (He finds himself bashful around her occasionally but won't admit it.)

Fang & Mai's Push & Pull˚∘⊰⋆☆

── .✦Both Fang and Mai danced around their feelings for a long time. Fear clutching both at their hearts. With Fang, he fears that she will just abandon him again and that he'll be hurt once more. While Mai, she fears that her own darkness will harm him. Even with them both being closest of friends, they held back for each other's sake.── .✦Then one day while Mai was having tea with Vivi, talking about life and other mundane topics. The older woman noticed a lot of things despite her old age, not even anything can hide from her sights and instincts. Vivi would tease Mai about her seeing someone and Mai would always deny it with her deadpan face but is internally dying from embarrassment. The old woman calling her out that nothing can be kept a secret from Grandma Vivi! Especially when it comes to love. Vivi passes on her wisdom along while encouraging Mai to not be afraid to love and how Vivi also noticed how Fang looks a bit more liver when they're together. While Mai seem to have more life to her than being this emotionless woman when she's with Fang. Vivi telling her that life is too short and it's best to pursue things than have regrets. This gave Mai a push to start to live her life a bit more. To love someone despite her own darkness and fear. After multiple failed attempts to verbally confess to Fang, she resorts to what she hated most. The heart knot.── .✦Mai remembering one of her conversation in the past with Nia, "I don't understand it, why don't you just go up to the person and tell them how you feel instead of this mind game?". Just for it to bite her back in the butt. After she successfully gifted the heart knot to Fang, thinking he accepted it. She thought she was on the end of the stick when she used to reject this countless times. She felt like it had to be a mistake, she's usually good at perceiving people. That's how she was able to protect herself.── .✦Yet, Fang gaslights her a bit that she was just overthinking it but she could see how his body language gave away his lie. Mai is very patient and understanding through this whole ordeal, not even being pushy but giving Fang all the space he needs. Then the last check up, after a heated argument from them both. It upset her but she kept her stance cleared that she'll just move on if he doesn't want anything romantic with her, just for him to shot back that he rather dies than see her with anyone else. A slip of a tongue, or maybe his true feelings was too much for him to contain. Mai felt her tears welling up. She thought it was unfair for the both of them to continue this endless dance where they both will just get hurt. Her accidentally blurting out, "Fine! You'll never see me again.." Rushing out of the clinic, with tears in her eyes.

── .✦Mai went to Vivi's home for some consoling and venting to her what happened in those days. Vivi comforting Mai and giving her some encouragement while telling Mai to not give up on Fang like how her previous lovers gave up on her. Telling Mai how both Fang and her are brave enough to try to love each other. Despite opening up to the possibility of being hurt. Saying that the both of them came from a place of hurt but the fact they both are even willing to slightly open their heart to love does mean something. Saying its understandable for them both to be scared of love and fear of losing each other. Mai understands this and does calm down. Thanking this elder woman for comforting her while also giving Mai another perspective on this situation.── .✦She does then give Fang some space for a week or so, not visiting his clinic. Needless to say, she had to restock on her medication and supplies but was too awkward and wasn't ready to go back to the clinic to see Fang again. So she just have Arvio fetch it for her instead from the doctor. Fang learning about this and is very hurt by it. Another instance where Mai would notice Fang walking around in town, then avoiding him despite him trying to wave at her. Even at the Blue Moon when she's talking to Owen, she would make an excuse to leave when she notice Fang arrives. Not even making eye contact with the man. Despite Fang not wanting to hurt her with his own past and trauma, preferring to love her at a distance even. He can feel his heart tearing apart from her avoiding him.── .✦Then Fang decided to muster the courage to talk to Mai, and maybe resolve this.. Maybe they can go back to being friends. A lie he tells himself as he head to her home. But his anxiety and worries hits him with the train scene.── .✦Thinking Mai left Sandrock, especially with her being distant and cold towards him for the last few days. Before he could run to the train platform, he felt a tug on his sleeve and looked over. Seeing the very woman looking at him with concern. "We need to talk." Was all that left her lips.── .✦ In silent acknowledgement, they both walked around the outskirt of town. With Fang opening up to her but with Mai not wanting to give up on Fang. It was a difficult and painful conversation they both needed. For Mai to know what happened to him and for him to understand that this woman will defend him like her life depends on it. Soon, she reached out to him in an embrace. It was tender and warm, no overdramatic or misunderstandings. Just mutual and mature understanding where they both want to try this, even with their own shadows and demons looming over them. Both are officially together, finally, after months and months of them denying their own feelings for each other.── .✦After all the days passing of them refusing to utter the words "I love you" during their friendship.. It felt like a relief to the both of them to be able to love and be loved by one another. Mai never have told him yet about her curse but does try to find the time to tell him since he opened up to her about his dark past and the heavy topics they talked about moving forward together.

Fang & Mai's Romantic Relationship˚∘⊰⋆☆

── .✦ Fang and Mai's relationship is a bit comical at first. This being Fang's first relationship and Mai having previous experience but stumbles and gets shy around Fang. Even with her harden and cold exterior, she does slip up and gets bashful around him. Others who are lucky to catch a glimpse thought their eyes were playing tricks on them!── .✦ Mai would often give Fang kisses on his cheek before she leaves to work or stops by his clinic. She always leave behind a black lipstick mark on his face for others to see when they visit him for a check up. The whole town knowing that these two are an item. Especially with Cooper boasting that he always knew all along but was being a good man to keep his nose out of their affair. He secretly wanted them to be together and would gush to Mabel about it secretly. (No-Talk Doc and Deadpan Builder are together!)── .✦ They don't get their fist kiss after a month into them dating. Mai trying to initiate a kiss but always end up kissing Fang on the cheek instead. Fang does get a bit disappointed with the last fail attempt but wants Mai to go at her own pace. He does occasionally space out, daydreaming how her lips would feel on his. X does encourage Fang to take initiative for their first kiss. The little raven would help him plan the perfect date where its just the right mood for the both of them.── .✦ Mai does curse at herself for not being able to kiss Fang. Asking herself, "What the hell is wrong with me..? I had experiences before why is this any different- No.. Fang is different from the rest.. I just don't want to mess it up.." Catching herself in her own thoughts when Fang's slightly disappointed face popped into her mind. Feeling that she might be failing as a girlfriend already. Mai prepares herself mentally, since she also wants to kiss Fang as well.── .✦ The next day, Fang asked Mai out to spend time with him during the Mid-Autumn Festival equivalent in the MTA universe. Both enjoying the event, wearing their own traditional wear. (Fang with a light green and white hanfu and Mai with her dark red and black ao dai.) After they both peruse around the festive grounds, he took her to somewhere more secluded. An area with a bench that is far away from the noise and events. Her dark green eyes gazed up at the night sky as she sees fireworks blasting into the sky, painting their faces in blooms of colors. Then she felt his hand pulling her closer by the hip. Mai looking up in awe while Fang inches closer, pulling her close to him. Looking down at her, hinting and asked.. "May I..?" Mai knew where this is going and confirms with "Mhmm." Both sharing a passionate first kiss with Mai leading, while the fireworks go off in the background. Fang pulling away to see her reaction just for Mai to pull him back in for another kiss. Fang collapsing on top of her while they kept kissing one another under the lighten up starry sky.

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